Happy Pill
by Rene Sisk
The sun is out
The birds are about
With all this happiness there’s still doubt
Playing a lullaby that is blaring
About caring is sharing
But instead I’m swearing
With angry eyes flaring
Every minute I’m only growing older
I’m only getting colder
Left with only my shoulder
To feel my tears
Left with only my ears
To hear my fears
Ignored by all my peers
I just want to forget about my insecurities
To get rid of my impurities
To feel a sense of security
Freedom from anxiety
No longer standing quietly
A model for propriety
Accepted by society
Maybe what I need is a happy pill
Small like Advil
To bring me thrill
Will that give me the drive
To thrive
Maybe enough to just strive
To be alive
Please just give me one, maybe two
How about we make it a few
Then I’ll feel brand new
Please just give me a happy pill
I promise then I’ll chill
After that life should go uphill
The world will finally be sitting still
Would this cure my depression
Or is that a silly question
I need to make a confession
When the door shuts
I’m no better than the sluts
Or the girl you make fun of who cuts
Or the boys who get punched in the guts
It won’t erase my sin
But will the world love me even when I’m not thin
Or at least help me love my own skin
Will it get rid of the demons in my head
The ones saying I’m better off dead
Will it help get me out of bed
Or just give me more dread
I need this happy pill
I’m starting to feel ill
Please just give me a refill
Just one will change my mood
Keep me from being rude
Creating a positive attitude
Only feeling gratitude
Instead I’ll write about love and passion
Giving me more compassion
Or should I stay old fashioned
Find something else to calm my nerves
Work harder on changing my curves
Remain quiet and just observe
After all maybe that’s what I deserve
Instead I took too many
It was more than plenty
I was only twenty
Instead I caused others infliction
Couldn’t tell what was fiction
Couldn’t stand the affliction
Caught in a romance with addiction
The birds are about
With all this happiness there’s still doubt
Playing a lullaby that is blaring
About caring is sharing
But instead I’m swearing
With angry eyes flaring
Every minute I’m only growing older
I’m only getting colder
Left with only my shoulder
To feel my tears
Left with only my ears
To hear my fears
Ignored by all my peers
I just want to forget about my insecurities
To get rid of my impurities
To feel a sense of security
Freedom from anxiety
No longer standing quietly
A model for propriety
Accepted by society
Maybe what I need is a happy pill
Small like Advil
To bring me thrill
Will that give me the drive
To thrive
Maybe enough to just strive
To be alive
Please just give me one, maybe two
How about we make it a few
Then I’ll feel brand new
Please just give me a happy pill
I promise then I’ll chill
After that life should go uphill
The world will finally be sitting still
Would this cure my depression
Or is that a silly question
I need to make a confession
When the door shuts
I’m no better than the sluts
Or the girl you make fun of who cuts
Or the boys who get punched in the guts
It won’t erase my sin
But will the world love me even when I’m not thin
Or at least help me love my own skin
Will it get rid of the demons in my head
The ones saying I’m better off dead
Will it help get me out of bed
Or just give me more dread
I need this happy pill
I’m starting to feel ill
Please just give me a refill
Just one will change my mood
Keep me from being rude
Creating a positive attitude
Only feeling gratitude
Instead I’ll write about love and passion
Giving me more compassion
Or should I stay old fashioned
Find something else to calm my nerves
Work harder on changing my curves
Remain quiet and just observe
After all maybe that’s what I deserve
Instead I took too many
It was more than plenty
I was only twenty
Instead I caused others infliction
Couldn’t tell what was fiction
Couldn’t stand the affliction
Caught in a romance with addiction
Rene Sisk is a young mother of two. Besides writing, she enjoys watching crime TV shows and diamond art. She loves to travel to new places and can't wait for the next adventure.