I Didn't Mean to Kill Your Ghost

by Alexandra Grunberg

accidents happen
                                                            suddenly
in choices more like habits
a knife slicing through air
in a crystalized shatter
like a pendant slipping
                        from a necklace
                        unclasped
I still feel the chain of you
                                    pooling
in the palm of my hand
and then         
                        ,
                        ,                                                                                  
                        ,                                                                                  
                                                                                               
I haunt the podium                                                     
where you used to sing                                  
and your voice still                             e c h o e s
a helpless accusation
                                                                        you were in pain
                                                                        I did you a favour
                                                                        it was an accident
How many times
do I have to die                                               it was an accident
and come back again
before I realize                                                it was an accident
the rules were never
fair                             

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Alexandra Grunberg is a Glasgow based poet, author, screenwriter, and artist. Her poetry has appeared in Collective Realms, Full House Literary, Nymphs, and more. Her poem "Coffin Lining" was previously published in The Raven Review. She enjoys obsessing over fictional supernatural villains, hillwalking to isolated locations, and towns that are more character than setting. You can learn more at her website, alexandragrunberg.weebly.com.